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In Me – March ’09

// March 18th, 2009 // Thoughts

Here are a few thoughts I shared with the team this week about what God is doing in me.

We have such a large capacity to live within our own brokenness and do so without realization. (At least for some time.) This is becoming a life lesson for me and has been in process perhaps for the last 8-12 years. (Apparently, I got on the slow train for growth!) This is being a difficult and beautifully restorative journey where God is healing me. I’d like to share some tools that have been helping me while I’m in the midst of it.

We are not as strong as we think we are :: Rich Mullins

“But I’m me. How can anyone know me better than me?” That’s the underlying thought at least. A songwriter wrote “O Lord, you have examined my heart and know everything about me. You know when I sit down or stand up. You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.” Psalm 139:1-2.  With these words, he begins to paint the picture of how well God knows us. The remaining chapter is spent adding the color, stroke, and details of the painting of just how much better God knows us than we know ourselves. How is it that anyone could know us in this way?! Settle into this: God does.

The ending of Psalm 139 has struck me with a greater level of depth.  It’s simple but it runs deep!  “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  Point out anything in me that offends you, and lead me along the path of everlasting life.”  We all can rest here…in a healthy, humble need of God.  This is where we stop trying to produce a fix or even create understanding on our own.  His knowledge of us is utterly more than we could ever handle about ourselves and He will point out areas in our souls where we need to take some sort of action.  I’m learning a new kind of rest and work…well, it isn’t anything new…just new places for me to go.

You humble me, Lord.